Church!! Yeah!! And Fears....

Today I chose a Southern Baptist church. Now I am not skipping around, I am going in order they are to my original choice back home then I will go back away...So this church was really good. I went earlier than I thought I needed to but I was still five mins late for Sunday school. Oops, but I was not planning on going to Sunday school so I was almost an hour and a half early for church lol!!I am so very glad I did! The adult Sunday  school was in the middle (lesson six of twelve) of a video study thing I guess it was designed for use in Sunday schools. Anyway, it is by a Chip Ingram. Spelling may be wrong. It was called Why I  Believe. Anyway I learned that in the Old Testament over three hundred predictions of the coming Messiah. I learned that the odds of one man doing just eight were comparable to  filling the state of Texas with half dollars marking one trowing it in and asking a blind folded man to pick the one that was marked.....Jesus fulfilled every one of them! How awesome is that?

I also learned what I am officially called. I am called an "extra grace required" friend! I always have been. The thoughts in my head tend to take strolls out my mouth before checking with my brain first and it has got me in some trouble before! whew! man! I am also what is known as socially awkward. Well I have a big fear of people so this is to be expected, I have intentionally not learned how to interact with "normal" people to "protect" myself by not having to be around people. If I act weird which I really do, noone wants to hang out. and few people do...So I am always doing stupid things and not even knowing I am doing anything wrong. I think this is causing my continued fear of people. If they get to know me, they really wont like me... AND God is telling me YET AGAIN to read the bible. not just before bed, I need to get at it, get off the computer games and start reading the bible. I dont think I can memorize it but I sure can try! And it was suggested I start with John and that is actually where I am at.Look for a study tips post soon! And I need to look up some things so I may be posting about that also!

The Sunday school went real well. Like I said, I was late. they had started already and I left right after. The church part of church went better than last time for sure!! I am much more happy than last week, still dont think this is my "home" church but thats ok! They seamed to sense that I didnt like the hugging and so they, for the most part, were happy to just shake my hand rather than hug me. I still felt like my personal bubble kept getting popped but it was so much easier to handle! God is working miracles in my life for sure! And quickly! A few of the older ladies did not get the clue and hugged me but it was surprisingly not very bad for me emotionally, I mean. I even kinda felt comforted like I dont really know, like it wasnt near what it by all rights should have been, but it wasnt easy either....It was definitely manageable! They sang like five songs, but didnt repeat any! The words to the songs were in pamphlets that they make each week so no song books laying around which was nice not to have to flip through lol. and it had a little study guide fill in the blank thing for the sermon to come so i looked up the chapter and verse before service and bookmarked it. I liked not fumbling trying to catch up to where they are and figure out how much i missed looking for it lol. The verses, Acts 8;26-40. Ok. confession. I dont sing so i read it while they were singing. I thought It was going to be about baptism. But they only did the fitst part so why they marked to 40 i dont know they only went to 31 I think. So I said that for a reason..ok...I thought it was going to be about baptism and I notice...a thing the size of a hot tub up front. I freak. I have many fears and water is one of them... I dont swim I dont take a bath, shower only...even doing dishes can get tricky sometimes depending on the day..and I immediately think duh! This is a Baptist church. the name itself tells you they put an emphasis on baptism.  I know the bible tells us we need to get baptized and Jesus did as well, but when he speaks of it, it seams like its more important to happen in the soul, a new spirit fills you. So is water baptism really important? Oh I love this...I wasnt sure so I asked a friend and one of his friends said something I will never forget! Just hold your breath and have faith. If you cannot trust God to preserve you for ten seconds how can you possibly have faith God will be with you for the rest of your life, and then Eternity??!! How awesome is that!! So yes I will let God work in my life here too.

I know I have a lot of fears. But I just keep remembering that post form earlier about how fear does not come from God. He dont even put fear of evil in us. 

So, over all, really good day and I am pleased. I learned a lot and have some studying to do. But this will not become my "home" church. I want somewhere I can jump in and help out and learn and be a part of the church not just attend. They seamed like they didnt need help anywhere...so I will keep looking. Besides I want to really look and compare and make the best decision for me, not just settle with the first one that didnt push me too far you know...