Communion and Mother in Laws

Communion at the church I attend is only done on the first Sunday of the month. If there is a special holiday I am sure they make special arrangements for it, adding one or changing when it is done. They say it is so we dont become desensitized to what it means to take communion. I get that. Today is the first Sunday of the month...so when I got there and found out we were going to partake in this I kinda panic. I have never done it and dont believe I have ever witnessed it either...

My first thought....I kid you not!....I am not Catholic, I cant take communion! I am not going to a Catholic church and have only been in one, for a wedding, ever. Why that came to my mind and out of my mouth I have no idea. So we establish that I do not need to be Catholic as no one else there is Catholic anyway...And still, I am not baptized, I cannot take communion if you are not baptized can you? Apparently, yes, you can...Still, I balk.

I am so unsure and thoughts are going through my head and the trays are getting closer and closer to me. But I listen to the preacher, and its like hes talking just to me for a little bit...and I become ok just like that. I take my little wafer (it is not an unpleasant smell but i wouldnt call it a pleasant one either....) and the "wine" (i put " around wine because I am unsure if it was wine or grape juice. I am pretty sure its grape juice because I am an alcoholic and I dont feel like I had a sip of wine and I would feel that I believe... that and he was encouraging kids [of a certain age]to partake.)

So he wants us to wait and all take it together. He talked about it and prayed over it. It was nice really. It was my first communion and now I am crying lol!! Ok. It was my first communion and it was special and it meant alot to me. More than I ever imagined.

I had the best day. My mother in law brought me and her friend who drove us out to eat and back to her house for the day. We spent a lovely afternoon outside on the porch swing in the nice mosquito free weather... We went back to church tonight and the music was pretty awesome tonight....so was the message...I will do something on that later because I wrote it down because the whole concept needed some studying lol.

So my Mom in law is having surgery in a few weeks and she wont be able to drive for a few months. But shes the BEST! She has found a way for me to get to at least most of the services even when she cant go...so I dont have to look for a closer one and start all over. I can stay where I am learning. And they have started a womens night thing at the church. I dont know what it will entail, I have never been to one. I have no clue. One day, soon, I will not be in the dark anymore! I will know what to expect and what is expected....It is Tuesday nights. I cant wait..I find the more I learn the more I want....